Today is the anniversary of Roe vs. Wade. Again, my muse has called to me. Unfortunately, I feel this work has been rushed due to my work schedule. I don't know when I will be able to get back to it, so I am going to publish what I have and hope I can refine it later. I don't want to leave this day with the image of the millions of babies, trying to make their way to Heaven after being rejected by their mothers. The image of choirs of angels, swooping down to pick up the crying babies and carrying them to Heaven, was the image that came to my mind this morning.
Unless you have been living under a rock lately, you have heard the
brouhaha over a comment by Harry Reid, currently the ranking Democrat in the Senate.In a recent booktitled Game Change authored by John
Heilemann and Mark Halprin, he was quoted as saying that voters would vote for
Obama because he was "light skinned," and because he exhibited no
"Negro dialect, unless he wanted to have one."Most of the right-wing media has played this
up as a racist, offending comment, while the liberal media has said it is of no
consequence. I suppose racism is in the
eye of the beholder. Obama has accepted Reid’s apology, and Reid is – as the
liberals always do when they want to sweep something distasteful under the rug –
“trying to move forward”.
Why am I upset?I’m not upset at
the hypocrisy of the Democrats in how they treat their favored minorities.I’m not upset at the “racism” of the comment.I’m just more than a tad upset at the double
standard of the liberal media, for this case demonstrates most emphatically how
differently they treat a Republican vs. a Democrat when it comes to comments
such as these.No, that’s not why I am
so upset.
I have made it a practice to pray a rosary every day.For those non-Catholics out there, the rosary
is a series of prayers, for which we use a string of beads to keep our place in
the process.While praying these
prayers, we meditate upon a string of events in the life of Mary and
Jesus.As we meditate, we come to more
full spiritual life.Lately as I have
been praying the rosary, especially the sorrowful mysteries, a series of images
has been intruding during my prayers.As
the words I write to illustrate these images and thoughts are not found
anywhere in the Bible, this is totally a work of fiction.It is my verbal illustration of what might
have happened…
It’s been one week – one long, rancorous week.I was out getting food for our little cast of
outcasts, and upon my return I was greeted with great excitement.The excitement wasn’t for the food and
supplies I brought, or for the fact that I returned safely.No, the excitement, so the others said, was
because they had seen Jesus!After they
calmed down enough to tell me, all I could think was “This is a cruel joke to
play on me!” They assured me it was no joke; Jesus had appeared to them, in the very room
in which we were standing!And not only
had he breathed on them, but he had given them the power to bind and release
sin!This was blasphemy!Only God could forgive sins!And they claimed that Jesus had breathed on
them, likening themselves to the creation of Adam and Eve, who received God’s
breath!This arrogance was beyond
understanding!
My name is Simon.Or
rather, it WAS Simon.I was Simon back
when life was simpler and all I had to worry about was getting enough fish in
my net and avoiding the Romans whenever possible.I love to feel the sunshine on my face and
the feel of the net in my hands.There
is nothing like the feel of the lines as I cast the net over, hearing the
lapping of the waves against the boat, and the flexing of my muscles as I
pulled in a full net of fish.But all
those things have changed.
The students in our religious education program are required to attend
a certain number of retreats before receiving the sacrament of confirmation in
our faith.A retreat is a removal of one’s
self from the world to focus on a relationship with God.While we confiscated a total of six cell
phones over the weekend (and no telling what other devices were smuggled in),
for the most part the kids cooperated and participated.
I’m having a hard time returning to the “real world,” as this
experience was one of the most intense I’ve had.Some retreats I feel like I’m more of an
observer and a helper.This was one of
those retreats that I put together and executed, and I was intensely involved
in the student’s journey.
We started out with my essay on “The Lesson of the Five Thousand,” then
watched a YouTube video called “Cardboard Testimonies”.It was all about having a hunger for the
message of Jesus and what happens when you let God enter your heart.We played some games (they ARE teenagers,
after all), and the real work began on Saturday morning.
While the praise and worship was flat – our church has never done
P&W and the kids were not used to it – we spent a good part of the day with
a series of Scripture, reflection/journaling, and discussion, with each session
building on the last.I took them from “where
are you now” to “what do you think is good for you” to “what does God want for
you” and finally to “what is God offering you”.We had some truly insightful comments from the teenagers in small
group.We played a blindfolded obstacle
course game, where their teammates had to yell directions to their “runner” to
get them to maneuver the course correctly.Of course, the other team could play dirty pool and yell out wrong
directions.We then had a discussion on
how to hear God in our lives, and how do we know which voice to listen to, and
how do we block out the noise to find our “true direction”?
But the icing on the cake was Saturday night prayer.I hadn’t actually figured out exactly what to
do that evening, but after some of the revelations (particularly from my
troublemakers), I decided to do a candlelight prayer service.The teens did prayer with a partner, and then
each one came to me individually for some personal prayer.“J” is a teen that has always acted out in
class, and he shared with us some very significant family problems, which
caused him much anger.“C” admitted to
carrying a lot of anger, also.So when “J”
came up to me and asked me to pray for his family, I did so and then added some
very personal prayers for him.While the
girls were eager to hug me after prayer, “J” tried to leave quickly.I reach over and, grabbing his neck, pulled
his head next to mine for a quick “head hug” and whispered in his ear “I really
care about you, J”.This tall guy, who
always tried to act tough and act out and always sought attention (which disrupted my
class), had to wipe his eyes as he left his chair.
Forget the games.Forget the praise
and worship.Forget all the other stuff.It is for those personal moments when I may
have changed a life for the better that I stay up until 2:00 am preparing my
schedule.It is for those moments, where
I can touch a heart, that I work myself to a frazzle.It is for those moments, when God works
through me, that I feel His grace.
I have been watching in disbelief as our “leaders” in
government try to fix our economic distress.The Democrats are, once again, blaming it all on the “rich,” that
elusive, unidentifiable group of madmen who are supposed to be bent upon the
demise of our country as long as “they” manage to keep their money.
This is such a laughable proposition that I should be
rolling on the floor, but the fact that there are actually people who belief
this hogwash and vote based upon this belief keep my chuckles at bay. I cannot
help but exclaim to myself, “Do people actually think that someone who is
invested in our economy wants it to tank?What the heckfahr are they supposed to gain from an economy that’s
closing businesses right and left and draining our tax rolls?”
Ah, but it’s not really economic dominance – nor even
economic equality – that is sought here.It is power, the power that is wrung from an uneducated and mostly
apathetic populace.For those who do not
know better, it is easier to appeal to the lowest common denominator in the
human condition rather than make educated arguments to persuade voters to
understand your position.It is easier
to cry “The rich, they are out to get you!” than to work hard to provide equal
opportunity to those less fortunate.Indeed, if those “less fortunate” were to become successful, much of the
power base of these sleazebag politicians would be lost.Notice that “the rich” won’t be found in any
list anywhere.“The rich” is not merely
those who are lucky enough to have incomes over a certain amount. (Note that
the “luck” is often disguised by the years of hard work, sacrifice, and assumed
risk.)No, “the rich” are not evil
unless they also subscribe to a certain political attitude, blaming their “fellow
rich” of the opposite political spectrum for all of the evils.I suppose dollar bills, like sand*, have a memory,
and reflect the social mores of their last owner.That evil, evil money!Except the money from the likes of George
Soros and his ilk!
It is more expedient for the power hungry politicians to
appeal to the base emotions of the uneducated in order to gain their votes and
keep their power.One of those base emotions,
and one of the Seven Deadly (or Capital) Sins, is Envy.Envy keeps one from being happy.Envy makes it easy to not achieve.Envy lets the lazy offload their personal
guilt over non-achievement to focus their frustration elsewhere.You don’t have a lot of money?Well, then, the rich people must have taken
it from you!They refuse to even think
that accumulating wealth is not a zero-sum game, where if one wins it means
another loses.They think of wealth as
coming from a finite pile of money, and if someone else grabs larger handfuls
of the cash it means there is less for someone else.Even with the wealth of information available
in public schools and free libraries, it easier to blame someone else for their
failures than to bootstrap themselves through self-discipline and a taxpayer
supplied education.Envy!Be jealous of someone else’s good
fortune!Don’t be happy for the success
of others!Noooo, carry that weight of
envy and anger and allow yourself to be manipulated into voting for those who
would continue your plight, in order to retain their power.
I teach the pre-confirmation class at my church, and last
week’s discussion was Sin & Virtue.We talked about the Gifts of the Holy Spirit, the Three Theological Virtues,
and the Seven Capital Sins.When we got
to envy, I asked if any of the students had heard about how to keep crabs in a
bucket.One of them had, and explained
to his fellow students the best way to do it.If a bucket holds only one crab, that crab will escape the bucket every
time, unless a lid is used.However, if two or more crabs are in the bucket, as soon as one crab
starts making progress out, the other crab will reach up and pull
it down.
The envious class is treated like a bucket of crabs.They continually try to pull down those who
are escaping their poverty bucket, and peer in awe at that godlike creature that
put them in that position in the beginning.That godlike
creature has every reason to keep them in that bucket.Little do the crabs realize that they are the
main course for the godlike creature who wants to keep them right where they
are.
*A reference to Al Gore’s book on the environment.I refuse to supply the name.
Today I remember my friend, Dora.I met Dora years ago through activities at my
church.This makes total sense, since
she was one of those dependable servants of God who served in many functions
over the years.She and I were working
as catechists during her last five years or so, and our paths crossed
continuously for different reasons.I
always looked forward to her smile and that ever-so-constant twinkle in her
eye.We had a special relationship, she
and I!I always teased her about her
accumulation of years, and she teased me for my lack thereof.I was the only person allowed to call her an “old
bat,” because it was always said with a smile and heartfelt love.She always laughed and hugged me and then
gave me back what I had just dished out.
Dora was one of those dedicated people who spent her life
serving others.Her husband had died before
I met her, so she had plenty of time on her hands and spent it well.She worked with people going through
bereavement, and often volunteered to say the rosary at the viewings of
deceased parishioners.She was a
chaplain at a local hospital and served on various parish and community
committees.She and I shared a strong
desire to educate our fellow parishioners about their faith, and we shared a
lot of opinions.I enjoyed our talks
about our faith and how well (or not) certain students were doing.Dora had accumulated, along with her
abundance of years, an abundance of wisdom, and I was always ready to absorb
some of what she knew.
The last time I saw Dora was several months ago, and I asked
how she was doing.Over the years she
had undergone multiple medical treatments to unclog her carotid arteries, and
she had survived breast cancer many years ago, before we met.She had developed a dowager’s hump as well,
but she always smiled and carried on her rather proper way.I never saw her without her lipstick and
make-up, and her hair was always done.So there she was, dressed up for church, and her response to my question
was that some preliminary tests indicated that she might have pancreatic
cancer.My blood ran cold and for once I
was speechless.What do you say at that
time?I wished her well and asked her to
let me know if I could help.
Shortly afterwards, I stopped at her house, but she was not
home.I found out from a friend at
church that she had moved in with her daughter on the north side of town during
her treatment.I also found out that she
had brain cancer.I knew, though I tried
to deny it, that I would not see my friend alive again.Those accumulated years that I had teased her
about were not working in her favor anymore.I sent her a few cards to wish her well, but I heard that she was tired
and losing ground and spent much of her time sleeping and recovering from her
chemotherapy and radiation treatments.
My dear friend died on Christmas day.We found out at mass the following Sunday,
and when the announcement was made there was a sigh from the congregation.When I went to church for the recitation of
her rosary, I could not help but think back on her work in this area.I did not go to see her in her casket, though
I could make out the purple hat and its satin ribbon that she wore to cover the
loss of her beautiful white hair, and I could see that she still wore her red
lipstick.I wanted to remember her as I
had always seen her – with the knowing smile and that ever-present twinkle in
her eye, bustling off to do some errand or other.
Good bye, my dear friend!You will be missed, but I look forward to seeing you again someday.